grudge

This is much more difficult than I expected. Most of the time I would like to give up. This grudge has swollen my passion and hope. Now my heart is empty, my spirit has gone out. I've fallen to the deepest ground. Confidence has faded, I am no longer interested in future. And the most I have lost is: Respect!!! 

I just wish we could relook again to what we have vowed, what we have passed, what we have dreamed together. It all seems so much different now, so much plain. One day may heal few, but there'll be come another day with more intensity. 

I admit that I am tired and sick of it. Often I see that devil laugh upon my misery. But I never lose hope to God for He can guide me through this.