why again??

So I got these two ladies which had been very best parts of my life. One's my ex, the other one is she-who-still-the-best.

I don't know... lately I've been talking, communicating, sharing, etc with both of them. And this strange feeling comes up again. I feel connected as I had felt long time ago.

With my ex, it's like she still needs me as a shoulder to cry on, as a man beside her to guide and lead. And somehow she said that it was a dumb decision to get separated with me years ago. I don't really care bout it, but somehow... it bothers me.

The other one also, lately we communicate and share quite frequent. This is what we always did. Ask other's opinion for something (e.g. problem, job thingy, deciding something, etc). I know this has only 1% opportunities for me. And it almost gone since she must do something that physically separate us even further. However.... she still shares it and keeps me in her loop. I really appreciate this.