Am I Crazy or Falling in Love???

Just had a chit chat this afternoon with N. She knew "it". Haha… Am I that obvious? I thought I hide it well. But, hmmm…. I can't deny… Yes I do…
Here is quote from "Crush" lyric from Archuleta. Some reflections. Hehe...

I hung up the phone tonight,
something happened for the first time, deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It’s just too much .. just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, try to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away, going away

Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more

See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

BebsGaul on Charity (Dec 8, 2008)

Tak kuduga dari sebuah ide kecil yg terdengar "spele", tapi memberi hasil yg cukup menyentuh. Berawal dari kongkow tengah malem bersama Bendot and Joko, timbul keinginan untuk berbuat sesuatu yang baru dan yg penting lebih "bermakna." Charity… Gue gak sangka si Bendot, biar 'downline'-nya bejibun banyaknya, tapi masih aware dan care sama sesuatu yg seperti ini.

Basic idea: kita collect duit jajan and hang out kita, trus kita sumbang deh ke panti asuhan. But apparently, we are willing to do more (not only transfer some money). We managed to spend the money for foods, milk, medicine, etc. And surprisingly, banyak temen2 di luar bebsgaul yang juga aware dan care untuk hal2 spt ini. And you can guess, we can achieve double of our target, even more.

So, the charity had done successfully yesterday at Panti Asuhan Mekar Lestari, Serpong. Thanks to all involved and participated (actively or passively) in our charity, i.e. BebsGaul (Joko, Pipi, Bendot, Chi, Romo, Juned, Gouw) as steering committee, Erwin, Novi, Melisa, Jon, Fifi, Selvy, Florensius, Handry, Denny, Averdy, etc etc. Sorry to publish your names here. There are no certain intention, only a piece of my deepest gratitude to all the support.

We plan to continue this periodically. Hopefully, we can have our own flag someday.
Tuhan memberkati....

The Ice is (slowly) Melt

Tadi… di Metro TV, gue abis nonton "Mario Teguh - Golden Ways" bareng sama bokap gue and Rio. It was all speaking about dreams, future, and family. In the middle of the show, there was a man, fourty something, asked: "Bagaimana caranya agar anak saya mengenang saya sebagai seorang ayah yg super, padahal saya sendiri adalah orang yg sederhana?" And Mr. Teguh answered: "Apapun kondisi Anda, berusahalah memberikan sesuatu yg hebat untuk anak Anda, berusahalah membuat anak Anda menjadi seorang yg hebat. Maka Anda akan dikenang oleh anak Anda sebagai seorang yg super."

Haha… Just wondered what his reaction is. He just smiled. However, I supposed to be a bit happy. Moreover, after he decided not to smoke again. It has been 2 weeks he doesn't smoke anymore. I understand this is very hard. And, I should support this. I have to melt the ice afterall. Sorry, Dad... for I was too stubborn. Let's start a new one. I'll try to be wiser. Thanks for the lesson.

Holiday with Spire @ Anyer (Nov 20-22, 2008)

WOW….. Anyer…. Akhirnya liburan juga sama teman2 kantor. Marbella, what a very nice place. Had fun, sun-bath, tattoo-ed, swam, beach-volleyball, tarik tambang, seafood….

Can't wait for the next trip with you guys….

Like Father Like Son...

Last night, I decided to go home earlier. Got headache and tried to take early bed.
But, it all screwed. Dispute happened, me vs dad. Dunno exactly what was wrong. Maybe I was hurting him. This was gonna happen when two stubborn guys met and argued for something.
Well, I have to go out from my house soon. Starts to have a new and independent life.
Sorry, Dad. You just look like me... No... I am the one who looks like you. We both the same... I hope someday we can understand each other. And money or other social thingy won't change my love to you, ma' bro' and sis'.

Disappointed...

Hey yo… I'm not in d mood today. It's like you've been competing in a championship for some time, motivated by a huge amount of prize and reward. Finally, you win the title. But, when you get the prize, it is not as worth as you thought. Wow… I was hurt... very very hurt... Once again, I was speechless. My gratitude dominated my ego. I was too weak to explode. Not enough TNT.

Easy....

Well...
Heavy is the burden to carry...
Hardly speaking... you're hiding behind the shadow, dude...
For how many long?? Your face laughs but your heart cries...
Ouw.. Yes...
I'm the great pretender...
Just laughin' like a clown...
I seem to be what I'm not...
You see, I'm wearin' my heart like a crown...
Pretending that you're still around...

Nevertheless, let it be my misery...

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Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed

Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning

Why in the world
Would anybody put chains on me?
I've paid my dues to make it
Everybody wants me to be
What they want me to be
I'm not happy when I try to fake it!
No!

Ooh,that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning

I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!

That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning

(Lionel Richie)

Life is (so) short

Mmhhh.. hari ini gue berangkat lumayan pagi.
Abis anterin adik gue ke kampus, trus g lanjutin perjalanan ke kantor lewat Tomang-Slipi, etc. Sampe di lampu merah Palmerah gue agak bingung, "enak lewat pejompongan ato sudirman, ya??" Akhirnya, g putusin lewat Sudirman, secara gue lagi pingin ngetes motor gue yg baru aja diservis setelah 5-6 bulan. Sepanjang jalan GatSu gue coba hajar si Vega (motor gue). Emang kendaraan klo abis diservis enak banget ya. Gue narik 100 aja naiknya cepet banget. Saking serunya, gue coba lagi di jalan Sudirman dari sejak BenHil sampe SetiaBudi. Tapi, pas udah mo nyampe Dukuh Atas, tepatnya di depan Auto2000, gak seperti biasanya macet banget, mana masih pagi pula. G sih yakin pasti ada kecelakaan. Dan bener aja, setelah gue bisa ngelewatin macetnya, gue ngeliat sesosok tubuh dari seorang Bapak, pake baju safari abu2, tergeletak di jalan dengan darah segar mengalir dari kepalanya. Sontak gue langsung bergidik, kepala terasa panas, dan langsung memelankan laju si Vega. Bapak itu terlihat sekitar umur 45-50. Yang terpikir setelah itu, gimana keluarganya kalo ngedenger hal ini ya?? Gue gak kebayang shock dan histeris anak istrinya. Memang hidup ini pendek banget. Gak kerasa, waktu cepet berlalu dan garis hidup manusia gak bisa diprediksi. Kayak kemalingan aja, tiba2 semuanya hilang. So... Ati2lah... Life is (so) short, too short to do something useless.