Half-happy

Hey bebsgaul...

How are you, guys? Been a long time we're not having time together to get mad and just have fun. Actually, we hang out sometimes. But only some of us most of the time. We can only have time together as a whole team for 8 times in a year, at the maximum. They are our birthdays. Hahaha... perhaps even less than that, because we sometimes join our birthday party, e.g. pipi and me, benny and yayah, etc. It's ok... We have our own business, I knew this would happen someday when we were very closed in the first year. So, I'm not surprised.

Yesterday, we hanged out, only me, joko, benny, pipi, and chichi. Just five of us. Leaving all the work-shits for a while and tried to have fun. Did we have? Or maybe the question more appropriate here is: did I have good time? Well, in some parts: yes. Mine are: Hello Stanger and Mulyono 94. But, most of the time, it's like a paradox. I still felt lonely being with them, I was flat though I laughed for a joke or something. It was just not the same. But I wonder what it was.

Seeing her after quite some time -- was a good feeling. Happy to meet her again, though it's different now. I am more relax and have no burden or something. Yes, I admit, she is still gorgeous in my eyes, as well as in my heart. But, it's not like it was. Please understand this.

I'm moving on... and rely everything on Him. Whatever it may take, I have my own purpose. Family's number one. Another two years, dude, then you can plan for your own future. Don't worry of anything. I believe God hears. I believe He has something BIG and GORGEOUS that I don't even think of. Please remind me to always smile and keep the spirit up. My friend says: God doesn't give what you expect, but He fulfills your needs...