Questions, Puzzles, Riddles, or what... You mention!!

It has been 2 days passed, the last time we met together and had a great time in Juned's house. Was it really a "great" time? Mmmhh.. Not at all i think. It was just a day where every questions came up to my head and I surely could not understand what is happening here. That question (once again) appeared in my head, and is still haunting me everyday, moreover, when all was black-out.

Wow... damn... what a situation. On one side I need a moment, or anything to convince myself of what I've been planning so far. But in fact, I got another obstacle. I didn't get any convincing thing that night. However, I think what I have been questioning so far have come up piece by piece. That's why I'm collecting the puzzles now and try to arrange them.

At this time, I can't trust anyone right now, even the source. I just can't trust like that. So, let see, and time will answer. Sooner or later, this will be revealed. And when I see with my own eyes and hear with my own ears, I will believe.

And what if the puzzles are already solved? Should I change my mind, step aside and cross the street to find other direction? Or maybe I'd choose to stay, and try to fix all these "incorrect" things? Or... (sorry) cure the disease? Maybe the last one is too rude. But, well... let see what will happen next. At least, I won't lie to myself. And that's a promise.

Domba itu ternyata kambing

Wah.. benar-benar tak dinyana
Bahkan gembalanya terkecoh
Ini benar-benar hebat
Domba itu ternyata kambing

Lucunya gumpalan-gumpalan bak awan
polosnya wajah rumpun ternak itu
oh.. ternyata hanya baju
tak kukira dia kambing... sulit tuk kupercaya

memang kambing tidak jelek
tapi kepalsuan adalah cacat
dan cacat itu sulit lenyap
hanya niat adalah tabib hebat

Kering sungai ini
tiada riak apalagi arus
biar kutunggu hujan untuk memenuhinya
baru kutahu akan kemana dia mengalir

Hanya saja.. sampai kapan ini bertahan
semuanya serba semu
tapi aku tidak ingin lagi berbohong pada hatiku
apa pun itu, pasti ada jawabnya
semua ada jawabnya... harus kuyakini...

September is Invicible?? Not really....

Tau gak apa yang mao gue lakuin sekarang??
TERIAK....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow.. for once in my career-life, i feel very EXHAUSTED. Kayaknya dah pingin larriiiiii.... yang jauh. Pingin ngilang dan gak mao ketemu siapa2. Bahkan muak banget sama apa yg gue kerjain. Emang bener kata Erwin: "You'll get the storm in March and Oct." Dan itu dah terbukti bener selama g kerja di sini. Issues in this project, troubles in another one, queries, etc. WOW.... damn.

Muncullah pula sebersit keinginan untuk mencoba hal baru di luar sana. Hanya saja banyak sekali perhitungan untuk mengarah ke sana. So, let see lah...

But, thanks to a wise friend. "The shortest distance between problem and solution is between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything." It helps, dude... helps a lot. At least it can heal me. All i need right now is encouragement, cos I need to move on. Thanks....