Beberapa hari belakangan ini bener2 luar biasa melelahkan buat gue. Sepertinya LWin memang bener, I have too much to think. It seemed like he could see all those bubbles popped up around my head.
Yes, he's right. Starts from my super massive job, my family, and of course my never-ending personal problem. I need to take holiday and throw my laptop away for a while.
Di tengah-tengah kebuntuan sikap dan dekadensi spiritual yang gue hadapi, gue coba untuk kembali menengok ke ATAS. Mencoba berserah dan pasrah. Menyadari semua pasti indah pada waktunya. Sekali lagi, lagu itu menolong... "ketika ku percaya.... mujizat itu nyata..."
Pelan-pelan mulai sedikit terbuka jalan untuk semuanya. Sadar atau tidak, aku yakin Dia pasti mendengar, dan laskar-laskarNya pun bekerja.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Integrity
Pheeeww....
On one side, I like being a consultant like this. Very challenging and interesting. Gain more knowledge and broaden my experience in many things, many industries, and of course network. But on the other hand, the process in understanding the issue and gathering the information are very tough, especially if you have to get "sensitive" data from a company.
Yesterday, I was asking such information to my friend. He was my college-mate. He is the key-source to the data. He has privilege on the data. So, there was about 15 mins chatting, explaining the situation, negotiating.... and the result is NO. Well... he was very tough. I was trying to convince that this won't endanger him. I'll shut my mouth and pretend there was nothing happen.
Nevertheless, I'm very happy to know that almost all my friends still keep their integrity.
On one side, I like being a consultant like this. Very challenging and interesting. Gain more knowledge and broaden my experience in many things, many industries, and of course network. But on the other hand, the process in understanding the issue and gathering the information are very tough, especially if you have to get "sensitive" data from a company.
Yesterday, I was asking such information to my friend. He was my college-mate. He is the key-source to the data. He has privilege on the data. So, there was about 15 mins chatting, explaining the situation, negotiating.... and the result is NO. Well... he was very tough. I was trying to convince that this won't endanger him. I'll shut my mouth and pretend there was nothing happen.
Nevertheless, I'm very happy to know that almost all my friends still keep their integrity.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
God, where are you?
Believe me or not, I need a touch, enlightenment, and answer. So many questions in my head that I can't answer. Why I have to do this.... why should You give me this... why this could happen to me... why can I be like that... bla bla bla....
Every night, I always have many things in my head. I always remember the time I woke up every night, more than 5-6 times in a night. I only sleep well at home when I have my family around.
This is torturing me every night. I have no idea how to deal with it. Meditation, I've tried but doesn't work. Counting sheep, it's just the same.
Where are you, God? Please give an answer. I know You are never in a hurry, but always on time. It's just... please don't let me wait too long. If I have to... please give me strength and wisdom to face this.
Every night, I always have many things in my head. I always remember the time I woke up every night, more than 5-6 times in a night. I only sleep well at home when I have my family around.
This is torturing me every night. I have no idea how to deal with it. Meditation, I've tried but doesn't work. Counting sheep, it's just the same.
Where are you, God? Please give an answer. I know You are never in a hurry, but always on time. It's just... please don't let me wait too long. If I have to... please give me strength and wisdom to face this.
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