Tuesday, February 24, 2015

I'm Afraid to Lose (Her)

Last week, I saw my former colleague's facebook. He wrote a song for his wife on Valentine's Day, he said that he misses her. And few days after, he wrote a poetry on their 11th anniversary.

And then, I go through the comments section and many commented and wished for her wife's healing. I wondered what is really going on. And when I found out what happened, it really shocked me. Her wife suffers a meningitis and until now she has been in the hospital for weeks. I am sad to hear that and I pray for the best for them. I wish she will be recovered soon, and I hope he and all family can be strong and never lose hopes.

This makes me think of my wife, and causes this feeling gets much deeper on her. After going through some precious moments in the past few years with her, I am really afraid to lose her at this point.

Yesterday, when I was driving to office, my wife was slept. And suddenly she got up and cried. I was very surprised. Later on she told me that she had a bad dream and described to me that she felt sleeping beside me in the car, but she could not get up and when she called at me, I did not listen.

This morning, I helped her to do her job and it came to a moment that she cried. She got overwhelmed. She felt in a huge pressure.

God, allow me to help her, equip me to calm her down. I don't want any bad things happen to her. Please, lead us away from the bad. Let this fire of love will remain flaming for the rest of our life.


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