She’s Turning One

Leaving a “FAMILY”

I had made a big decision this year for my career. I left May**** to join O**C. 

But here is the paradox, I am so ready for the next adventure, while my other part of my heart felt very hard to leave the bank. I can’t mention all the good things one by one here, but above all, I am surely going to miss my excellent colorful fun dynamic and extraordinary team mates. For me, you are just like my second family. Gonna miss the chit chat, bullies, fun, adventure, and soooo much stuffs there.

But I believe friendship remains whatever it takes. I hope we can still have this madness when we “kongkow” again someday. 

I wanna thank so much to my wonderful Boss for everything. Tbh, you are my best ever supervisor. No kidding la... I got no KPI burden anymore hahahhaa.

Thanks to my wonderful team mates:
Elv** - the smart and active one. Learned a lot from you, girl.
Mar** - keep charming and healthy. Yeah you need to be healthy.
Aki** - good luck for your plan in the future broh.
Ban* - thanks for the tremendous support. Good luck for everything.
Aj*** - my not-so-twin sister.
Cik* - best of luck to find the loved one.
Ask* - good luck for the wedding ya.
Vi** - keep sporty and healthy.
Rai*** - we just met but I knew you’ll get along with the pack.

Sounds crazy that I took the decision, but I have to speed up and move on.
Understand that not only I was leaving a company, but I was leaving a “family”. 

I know it sounds crazy, I tried so hard to not crying at the farewell but I admitted that I cried when I got back home ;)

Don’t wanna say goodbye, cause we may cross our path in the future. God bless you all. See you guys!!!!

RIP Cuk!!!

I had two farewells in November. One with my uncle, one with my office mates.

It was Nov 13, got shocking sad news that my uncle has passed away in Singapore. I understand how hard it was to fight cancer.

Of all things we've been through, I want to thank you so much for all the support and kindness during my study and I pray him the best place in heaven. May God have mercy on his sins and He welcome him in His kingdom.

Rest in peace, Cuk!!!

My Sister’s Wedding

Don’t Worry

Don't worry, sweetie!!!
Papa will always be there for you.
No matter what....

A Warning

Last Saturday, my family and I were going out for weekend leisure. We planned to take Em for spa and massage then went to mall afterward.

Right before we arrived at the spa, we got a terrible accident that involved a motor bike and a truck behind us. Everyone was very shocked. Just look at the car after the crash...

Tuhan Memberkati

Barusan naik taksi dari kantor ke RS karena mau ke IGD (lambung kumat terus). Ternyata beliau juga umat Katholik. Waktu turun saya tanya

"Bapak Katholik?"

"iya Dek. Tuhan memberkati ya"

"Sama-sama Pak. Tuhan memberkati juga"

Saya ambil itu sebagai doa untuk melewati beratnya melawan penyakit ini. Ya... semoga Tuhan memberkati. Amin.

This Little Creature Made My Day

Last Sunday my wife, bro in law, my daughter and I went to shopping mall to buy some stuffs for our house.The story is about Em. She was very very excited, laughing and yelling all the time. Others saw her and smile upon her cute behavior.

And at one moment, she was tired and sleepy. So that I took her with the carrier and put her in front of my chest. All the way when I carried her, she often starred at me in a very very INNOCENT way, she sometimes grabbed my chest maybe just to steal my attention.

And until a moment that she was very sleepy and finally asleep with her hands folded in front of her chest and she closed her eyes with that super INNOCENT look that I can't forget. I was touched, teary eyed. I fall in love with her. I can still remember exactly her face at that time, and although I may not have her physical picture of her at that time, I promise I will try my best to remember the moment (and every moments, off course) for the rest of my life. And one day when I grow old with my wife, I hope we can talk about this again with not-even-less feelings. Because this little creature has made my days, and I believe she always will.

Love you my little screamer... your scream is angel's voice to me... may God bless you always...

Haruskah Begitu?

Seminggu terakhir, cukup melelahkan untuk gue dan istri. Jam kerja cukup padat dan kebetulan kita banyak beraktivitas di Jakarta yang sebetulnya memaksa kondisi fisik kita untuk kerja lebih berat. Tiap hari bangun jam 4.30. Walaupun tidur dari jam 11 malam, tapi kadang terbangun karena si kecil masih menyusui dan perlu diganti popoknya. Kebayang kan kalau kita tidur bisa 4-5 jam saja tapi gak nonstop, mesti paling tidak kebangun 1-2x. Istriku paling tidak 2x mesti bangun untuk perah ASI. Yah begitulah lelahnya, sehingga dalam beberapa hari terakhir kepalaku sering melayang seperti vertigo, kalau berdiri seperti terasa lagi gempa atau berputar.

Hari ini, sebetulnya aku benar-benar ingin menikmati hari Jumat dan kumulai dengan makan malam ulang tahun dengan istriku. Semua berjalan sempurna, sampai baru saja istriku masuk kamar dan memintaku (dengan nada tidak sabar) untuk membereskan baju, kemeja, dan dasi yang ada di dalam kantong plastik. "Besok saja ya", kataku. Tapi lantas dibalasnya ketus dan kasar "Besok mana ada waktu lagi.. you suka nunda kerjaan." Lalu dengan bersungut ku ambil kantongnya dan kubereskan di luar. Entah kenapa dia seperti tersulut dan marah-marah "yauda kalo ga mao beresin gausa pake marah-marah. Emangnya gak cape ya.. I juga banyak kerjaan dan lebih banyak malah. Kalo ga suka gausa pake marah-marah." Sambil membanting-banting dasi yang awalnya direbut olehnya.

Jujur ya... ini agak irrational menurutku. Sakit memang hati ini. Tapi aku cuma coba sabar. Karena ga mungkin kerasnya batu dilawan batu juga, bisa hancur semuanya. Mungkin baiknya ku diam dulu sementara waktu. Demi pernikahan ini.

Beberapa hal:
1. Menunda membereskan baju sampe besok pagi gak akan berdampak luar biasa kok. CUMA baju!!! CUMA baju!!!
2. Banting sana banting sini sebetulnya itu malah sifat alami dia yang menurutku sering dilakukan dan sudah sering kuperingatkan berkali-kali, terlebih bila anak kami sedang tidur dan dia seringkali buka pintu atau meletakkan barang dengan kurang lembut.
3. Bertengkar di depan anak.. semoga gak terjadi lagi di kemudian hari.
4. Ga jelas apa dia masih hormat atau masih sayang apa nggak. Sepertinya semakin keras dan kasar kalau bicara. Dalihnya karena orang Sumatra jadi boleh ngomong teriak-teriak. Aku pun ada darah Sumatra tapi setidaknya lebih bisa menjaga dan melihat situasi.

Yang paling ga masuk akal dan menyakitkan itu yang nomor 1: karena itu CUMA baju!!! Kalau karena gara-gara baju bisa berantem dan bikin rusak hubungan, apalah artinya semua ini. Jujur saja sempat kuberpikir untuk pergi. Tapi...... sudahlah, ga akan menyelesaikan masalah.

Ga ada yang bisa kulakukan kecuali berdoa dan memohon kesabaran dari Tuhan dan Bunda Maria. Semoga ini hanya sedikit riak dalam rumah tangga. Aku pun berbalik melihat anakku yang sedang tidur. Sambil kutatap wajahnya ku berpikir, kasihan sekali anak sekecil ini menjadi korban ego orang tuanya. Aku terisak menahan jatuhnya air mata ini. "Sabar... Berpeganglah pada Tuhan!! Semua kan baik-baik saja" bisikku dalam hati menenangkan gejolak amarah dan kecewa ini.

Baiknya ku tidur saja.. semoga besok hati lebih tenang, kepala lebih dingin.

You are the Center of My Universe

I feel my life is meaningful and I have tons of reasons to live and enjoy it.

Both of you have been fulfilling my empty space in my heart. I cannot ask for more. I'm totally grateful and happy.

I love you both.. cause you are my life, you are my center of universe, Liv and Em..