I am 31 y.o.

This is my first birthday with my wife. I precious every moment with her. So many things I have done over the last three decades. Now, I'm entering my fourth decade. 

I thank God for everything He has provided to me: this colorful life, lovely wife, tremendous family, wonderful friends, great jobs, etc. I am grateful for every single day He gives. Also a big thank you to my family and relatives who came for the dinner and celebrate together.

I know that I still have plenty to achieve in the future. I just hope God allows me to get them all, and of course according to His will. I also hope that this unfriendly sickness that happen to me so far will be gone soon. This has been disturbing me for two years. I know that I will survive and recover very soon. I just need to be patient. Fortunately, I have a wife who never stop encouraging me to survive and keep going.

Thanks for everything, God.
I can't ask for more.

Hurt

Last week was a quite tiring week. Somehow, I was quite tired through the weekend. So, long story short, on Saturday afternoon, my wife asked me to take her to buy Sate Padang near my house. It is actually not far from my house, it only takes 10 minutes to get there. I was just awaked from my day nap, and I don’t know somehow I’m very tired and finally I not-whole-heartedly took my wife to get there. A little conversation happened on how I was hardly willing to take her to get there.  And the worst thing was I said it harshly.

Then, I could see a very sad and disappointed face of her. At that moment, I knew that I have just done something stupid. I hurt her. Finally, she cried. I could not think of anything else but told her my apology.  

So, that was a small thing that triggered the dispute. I knew I was not supposed to do or act like that to her. I deeply deeply apologize.

This reminds me of many bad things that I had done to my family years ago. This will not be easy to forget, but I hope I am forgiven. I hope they forgive me. My family… and my wife for sure… I am sorry…