Something will be Very Priceless If You've Lost It

Read the title up there?? I don't want to experience it for the very times. This is the time for my ego. I have to admit that this gets stronger and stronger each day. And after knowing all the truth last night, I became angry of myself. Actually, the door was quite opened, and I was quite welcomed. But, I was too dumb, idiot, or what so-called to just keep staring and let the door finally shut.

And now, seems like the door once again is unlocked. It's my turn to open it and get in there. Don't be idiot for the 2nd time. I won't wait this time. Hope she can feel it, too. And hope God can also listen to my plea. I'll courage myself... This is my turn. I have to control it. And I know I deserve it.

*fingers crossed....

hmm... mulai lagi deh...

padahal sudah tak pusingin itu lagi...

kenapa tiba2 ter-pusing-i lagi???

kenapa datang lagi???

membingungkan....

Dad's Surgery

Hi Dad...

You know how much I'm worried about this. Even though it's just a small surgery in your neck, and the possibility of getting worse is very small, I'm still worried though.

Finally, you made a call just now, and said everything's OK. The surgery run well. Hoof... I can take a deep breath now. Hope this can make you healthier, Dad.

God bless you.

This can't be true

See, this is the story. I have an old friend. We've been friends since my junior high. Sort of uncompromized, ambitious, and smart guy. We seldom meet each other and for once we went to some place and gone bad there (kind of night life entertainment). We were only enjoying the show and there were no further action after. I thought that was kind of part of his life (read: job) that demanded him to do so. No further thoughts, because I believe that this guy is a strong person, and straight. All what he has been doing, I believe, it's only for job purpose.

Until last night, when my other high school mate, a lady, told me something about this guy. For about couple weeks they have been communicating each other. And this guy never stop to ask this lady to go somewhere far from town. He always asks to go to out-town and stay in there. He'll book a hotel room for her but as a return, he requires her to do something that I think I can never imagine he said so. Please don't take it too far. It's not that far, but almost there. Sorry, I can't tell it right here. This is too embarassing for him, her, and I of course.

Wow... he's just change. I think he has something to tell, it's just about who's the right one to listen and help.