Well... it is not always smooth and perfect, is it? I learned that it is very important for a couple to really understand each other very well.
Lately, she often annoys me with her attitude . When she wants something, she has to have it or get it. Her ego is somehow killing me.
Few days ago, we debated on notary stuffs. The thing is, we are needing a notary service badly. At first we had difficulty in contacting our notary partner, but we had been informed that this would be followed up after the holiday. However, she insisted on asking it over and over again. Asking for another option and being so impatient and again.
Yesterday, we debated on something small and silly. So, we are repairing our bathroom in our house. The thing debated was about how to provide the handymen lunch. She asked me to ask our contractor partner on how many handymen will be employed, then we would provide lunch according to it. I explained that this was a contractor stuffs, number of handymen could be vary based on what job was being executed. So, I told her we could just ask my brother-in-law to come over and ask, and buy their meals according to it. And the warteg is not far, afterall. But, she insisted and pushed me to ask the contractor on how many of them. I am very sure that today or tomorrow the number of handymen will be different. If it is less than two persons, then there will be a excess. Otherwise, there will be shortage, and my brother-in-law will need to come back and buy again.
The thing is, I really didn't understand what she stood for by being so annoying like that. She somehow becomes very pushy and egoistic. I don't want to assume but I think she becomes like the bosses. She told me that her boss is very pushy and demanding. This reminds me of my former bosses, too. I think those things plus the pressure in her office shaped her attitude.
If you read this, Hun, I don't want to mad at you on something silly like this. Maybe, if I counter you back on these above stuffs, we might have "a big fight upon a small thing", and it's not worth it, and I don't want it to happen to us. Our love and marriage are much more important than this.
There is something we need to work on... our attitude. It is very important for us to separate office stuffs and family stuffs. I, myself, has tried very best to keep the line straight and clear. When I am home, I will try not to bring office stuffs home, and moreover my attitude at office.
It is hard, you know, to hold this bad feeling. I think somehow we need to let go, get a loose, don't over think, don't over react, don't make things complicated, and don't enforce too much on something. Sometimes if we look around, couple or family that don't have many things, in fact, have a lot to be grateful. They don't over think, they just let it go, and let if flow.
My wife, I love you so much that I don't want to bring this up into a conversation due to your hectic and busy moment recently. But, if you ever read this, please remember that we have been through so many things... happiness, sadness, fun, anger, and sooo many moments. I am sure we can get through this.
Sorry if this hurts you, but above all of these, I love you as always... And hoping this will make our relationship even much stronger and hotter than ever. Hehehehe....
