Resolution

Hi Nong...

Thanks for the battle yesterday. 

Yes, we fought.. But I think that was a good fight. We almost lost, but eventually we both won it. Geez.. I knew marriage is not easy, but never thought it would be this hard. However, it ended happily.

As I told you, that I will fight my best for our marriage, for you, for Em, and for God. Cos marrying you is not about winning lottery, but I chose you to be your life partner, no matter what. And I hope you feel the same.

On our bad characters, I think we can try to adapt slowly. Cos I'm deadly sure we don't need therapy for this. It's all about communication. I am sorry for what I have done. I'll try to change it. So, whenever I forget if I do it again in the future, please alert me and don't keep it to yourself. We learned how hard and sh*t to keep everything ourselves. It's better to tell the truth from the beginning. Understand that truth hurts, but it's way better than fake it. 

Thanks for still caring me when I'm down and for always be there in any situation. I just want you to be more relax and chill. Don't get to rush cause you need a calming moment of yourself too. 

Thanks for the "fight" of our life hahaha... That was an early surprising yet beautiful anniversary present for us. Can't wait for the memorable years to come with you.

Your always stubborn, annoying, but more loving husband,

Mbul

Another Big Test

Been a while since I don't have any major issue on my health. Recently, I got trouble again in my colon. And yesterday, I just got my chest in pain and finally diagnosed with Calcification in my aorta. It's a heart disease.

I don't know what to say anymore. I feel terrible and crushed. Somehow I feel disappointed and sad. Why does all of this happen to me?

Things that bear in my mind are my two lovely person: my wife and my daughter. 

Lucky I have a wonderful and loving wife, a cute and cheerful daughter so that I can have the reason to fight for this. Not forgetting all the loving families around, my parents, siblings and in-laws. I just hope I'll survive and I can give more love to them.

God, please allow me to do so. 

I thank for everything happen in my life, everything... 

I beg you forgiveness and healing. 

I love you, God...